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Ultimately, I Am The Only One Who Can…

*The Staple Singers’ “If You’re Ready (Come Go With Me)” was on repeat as I wrote this*

It is Monday, July 11, 2016 and I have taken a “Mental Health Day,” reserved especially for my own sanity.

I could not mask-it-up and go into work knowing that my soul is ill-at-ease. If there is no peace with my soul…

And, I cannot see myself around others without peace. So, today… I thought it best to bubble up, stay where it is safe, and think.

I enjoy thinking.
It helps me to be a better person.
It grants me clearance. I am my own Homeland Security.
I must keep ME safe.

I am carrying the tears of my ancestors from centuries before in the small of my back. It is in pain. I cannot move. There is no pill to take. No exercises to do. No Chiropractor who can

The Sting.

No hatred
(Come Go With Me)
Will be tolerated.
(Come Go With Me)

There is only time. There is only today. This moment.
I woke up knowing that today would be the day for me to reclaim what is mine before I lose it entirely. And, I will not

No economical exploitation
And no political domination

I am Icy and Hot, both soothing the pain that lives where it cannot be detected. No sources will locate it. No X-Rays, CT Scans, or MRIs will point it out. It is invisible, yet strong enough to


But, I am fighting back. For the many yet-still-living-and-breathing souls, I am fighting back.

Today, I am not going to lose it.
Today, I am taking a break.
Today, I will not give them my skills to cultivate, strip down to the bone, and lick the marrow from its cracks.

And, I hope you are too.

Author’s Note: Special thanks to S Lynn Knight. All I needed was time.

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I’m more than breath & bones, I’m nectar in waiting — Owner ACG •Editor PSILY •Writing for the cosmos. •

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