I read this and… I know we are all designed for the moments in our lives and will experience what we should and I am a person quick to leave when my tolerance levels are tested. Or I leave before they can. Or I push them away because it seems like that is where they would like to be anyway, away from me.
I read this and my heart ached for you and it does for him too, not even knowing him, because routine and habit is his realm and that can be incredibly stifling. I am learning that as I age. Peace to you, Jess, whatever your outcome, may it give you satisfaction.