No matter the content, no matter your thoughts, write it out. I cannot clap to you belittling your work the way you did, because I do not feel the same. And, I believe we must be confident in what we share. I do not have any advice, I just do not want to see you go. But, I fully understand wishing and wanting to be more. You are human, your words mean a lot to you, if they did not, this post would’ve never seen the light of day.
I wish you comfort and peace in one day knowing that your words opened up something that was once dead in someone else. I assure you this is so. Stick around a while, you will feel better.