Tien, it is weird. In all honesty, I did not expect to be so calm. I expected rage, disappointment, uneasiness. I felt a bit of rage and sadness, but that was for a few moments. Then, a sudden realization hit me; life is both open and closed, like a Cheerio, enticing.
I am not numb, I know what that feels like. I do not know why I feel this way, but I am not going to question it.
Peace, Tien. *big hugs*