Today, Just Let Me Have My Pain
A Haibun (for Chrissy)
I am getting through the days as best as I can — challenging them with my presence. I knew she would have wanted me to live — to move forward — to press into this life without falling too far behind the fold. But sadness is a thing many of us shove to the back burner, afraid of feeling what we need to feel. I made a vow to myself years ago — I would sit with my emotions, acknowledge them, wrap myself up in them, and remove myself from them when it is time. No amount of suitable affirmations or positive expressions will lure me away from experiencing this phase of life.
And you suffocate my phone with quotes and scriptures and lovingly placed words, but today, just let me have my pain. And when I am done washing in this stage of sadness, I give you my word, I will be renewed.
challenging moments
push positive people in
but we have to mourn
©2022 Tremaine L. Loadholt
