You have a voice. Use it however you feel. You know your heart. Everyone does not experience everything the same. Some do not know. Some will never know. It does not mean it does not exist. I wish I had the words to comfort you.
You are not my enemy. I know that. You, in your calm and questioning way, are light Tessa. Move when you want or not at all. I will not judge you, that is not my way. No one else should either.